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It's okay to be you. by im-Rem It's okay to be you. by im-Rem
It's rough trying to be yourself, because finding out who that is may be nearly impossible, but I'm starting to get a grasp on things.
Even worse than the words of others are the words you can inflict upon yourself. I've convinced myself of how freakish and worthless I was, even to the point of thinking of just..giving up on life completely. I'm done with that. I've been done with it for a while now and I can accept the fact that the way I am isn't changing any time soon. I've wanted to do something like this for a long time now, but I've been too scared to. I think it's about time I just went ahead and tried it. It's hard to hit that submit button...but I will, and as you read this, you know I have.

There are people I know in real life who will see this. There are people in my family who probably will too, and I'm scared to death of finding out what happens from there. My worst fear is to be cast aside by a sister I love dearly. I've done it before and it was terrible, I don't want to go back to it. ha.....I never would have thought that the first sibling who threw me aside would be the most accepting of the two now. I can't thank her enough for all the acceptance she's given me....
In fact I can't thank anyone enough, but here it is:
Thank you all so much for helping me get to where I am now. Thank you for helping me feel like this was okay, that I was okay...that I am okay.

Everything will be fine, and I have faith that no matter what happens it'll all work out.



To everyone hurting...whether in their own way or in a way I've hurt before, I may not know you, but I do love you, I'm proud of you for holding on, for keeping going, for trying despite what others say. For knowing deep down that there is better than this and that you can get there. You are a beautiful person and I give you my love because of that.

You can do this.

My name is Eli and I am a person who loves. No matter what else people may say, that is always what will be there.
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Chrno-Inuyashasgrl Featured By Owner May 10, 2013
i know im late on the response and that we haven't spoken as much as we use to, but you are still a best friend to me and I will always care about you and think of you as one of my closest and dearest friend I have. I love you for who you are and you are awesome and amazing as an artist and as a person. Never change for what people think you should be just be you and be true to yourself! I love you and I hope you are doing well. K.
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im-Rem Featured By Owner May 10, 2013  Student General Artist
<3 teaaaarsssssss
I love you too Katie so so so much. I still have a letter I wrote for you years ago sitting safely on my shelf unsent and I feel bad for it and I miss talking to you and need to get back in the habit of it really bad. I hope things are going well with you too ;v;
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Chrno-Inuyashasgrl Featured By Owner May 27, 2013
*huuuuuuggggggssss*

I still have the letter I wrote you too, maybe we should actually do that while your in college lol, don't feel bad, it was a good idea when we thought of it, but we were too busy rping that we never actually got it started. Friends don't always need to talk we can pick up on conversations at any given point in time because we will always have a special place for one another in our hearts.

things are going ok for me :3
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im-Rem Featured By Owner May 27, 2013  Student General Artist
<3 <3<3
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Kerryopia Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
*gross sobbing while flying into the sun*
Eli~~~~~ :iconcraiplz:
You're so awesome for making this <3
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2013  Student General Artist
<3 ;w;
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lividrose27 Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Eli. I loved you when you were Beth, though I never knew how to properly show you that love. and I love you with all my heart as eli... you are special, amazing, strong and wonderful and I get you being an uncle for 3 :)

I love you.
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2013  Student General Artist
Thanks for making me an uncle <3 Love you too Mar
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lividrose27 Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I was more then happy to do it! Twice!! That's all you get though... I'm done..... capute.... vindidadsen...kabloowie.....
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2013  Student General Artist
Vinididadsen is a new one for me
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lividrose27 Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Dictonary hate me... I make up new words when I don't know how to spell the appropriate word... I'm waiting for the phonetic dictionary to come out so I can actually pretend I know what I'm doing when i get behind a keyboard
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2013  Student General Artist
*patpat*
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Leaglem Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student Digital Artist
YOU ARE THE MOST AMAZING BEING OUT THERE. You make me smile and your words are precious and inspiring. Keep going my Rem, everything's going to be okay if you love yourself. We all do already!
"Because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind".
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
that's one of my favorite quotes ;A;! :tighthug: Iluleaomg
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lizziecat1279 Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
*HARDCORE SNIFFLES INTO THE NIGHT*
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DreadfullyDeadlyDay Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013
That was beautiful! I will find you a new nickname now, though. Hmm. I'll work on it. XD

You are a strong person who I've admired for a long time and it was never a question on accepting you. A person's sexuality should not make people hurt so much. All it means is that you have a far better capacity of love than others. I'm not going to abandon such an awesome person. There is nothing you can do about it! You're stuck with me :P
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
new nickname? I don't need one do I?

You're the sweetest thing and I love you so much. But you know that <3 I'll see you soon
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DreadfullyDeadlyDay Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013
Otay. If you still want to be M'Lady then you shall! :D

Why thank you ever so much, you're quite the sweet one yourself. I love you lots and lots too! <3 = <3

Yes! I shall see you soon and we will dance the night away!
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
You already tell me I'm manly on occasion so I've always been happy with that XD M'lady is always fine
<3=<3 First Tango is always your's
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DreadfullyDeadlyDay Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013
Yay! As long as you are fine with it. You are a fine gentleman as well.

Yes! I will always have a Tango for you, M'lady.
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MaideninMaille Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013
<3
I love you dear, you're mostly the one who made last year the best year of my life.
<3
I don't know how you couldn't feel loved around our group of friends, but if you ever do- *hug* -there.
<3
Its nearly impossible to not like you, you're such a wonderful, radiant person.
NEVER convince yourself you aren't loved, because you are.
Now and forever
<3
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
:tighthug:
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MaideninMaille Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013
:hug:
<3
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NekoKantana Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
This is beautiful. I'm sobbing at my computer. It made me happy and *insert feels of love towards your here*
That picture looks gorgeous.
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
thank you <3 :hug:
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Shadow-Shinigami Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
this is so beautiful ;w; im just ksldjlkdsfj *clings to you.* Hi I'm your new shirt mkay. mkay. *sniff* im downloading this myes :iconmanlytearsplz: keep being awesome yo~ :iconsuperw00tplz:
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
:tighthug:
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Shadow-Shinigami Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
=w=
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Feather-Dragon Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
How do I explain to the people sitting around me why I'm crying? Oh my God, Rem this moved me to tears. This is the most beautiful thing I have ever read. Oh my goodness, your words. I can barely describe my feelings that have stirred within me thanks to your words just wow...

You Rem, are such an amazing individual. You are so strong and brave for doing this, I mean, to come forwards like this is so very difficult and I am amazed. I'm amazed by your courage and confidence in yourself, it's truly unbelievable. This here should be shared with the whole world. It should be shared so other people can look at you as the great influence you are and find strength within themselves just like you have. God... you really are so astonishing, so amazing and courageous. I wish my vocabulary could find more words to describe how truly great this is, how truly amazing YOU are.

No matter what happens I'm sure it'll work out for you. Why? Because you've already proved your strength. You believe in yourself, you know what's best for yourself and you know what? That's all you need. It's so hard to find a sense of self-satisfaction, of complete and utter self-confidence and yet you've clearly achieved it. You know who you are, and people will have to accept you for that. You've accepted yourself and that in my opinion is one of the hardest parts. You've already done something so many have so much difficulty doing. Thus, no matter what happens, I know you'll be alright. People will accept you because you've accepted yourself.

I'm sorry for the rambling I just... oh God I have so many feelings from this I can barely express. I wish you were right next to me right now so that I could give you a big hug. I know it doesn't have the same effect but, have an icon. :iconarmstrongtighthugplz:
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
Oh feather you're just always filled with such kind words :tighthug:
It's a work in progress, I'm still getting to know me and finding my confidence as I go. Everything is always a work in progress, just have to keep going. I'm glad you got something from this, though I'm sorry for the tears ^^; even if they're good one's <3
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Feather-Dragon Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you Rem dear. I suspect that it will always be a work in progress as that is how life goes. However, you have come a really, really long way in a relatively short amount of time. You're inspiring, you truly are. I hope others get as much out of this as I have.
You're a beautiful person. A beautiful, talented, and ridiculously inspiring person and I hope you always remember that.
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
;v; <3<3<3
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AdmiralA Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013
I love you, Eli. :iconsweethugplz:
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
;v;
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GetItOnTheFlo Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
hi i don't know what to say because i'm stupid but i'm trying not to cry in the middle of class because this hurts and it's strong and i'm not sure what i want to say but i want to say something this just really fucking hurts and the fact that you're able to come forward

and

idfk
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
:hug: there there. If you need to talk at all just let me know <3
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TobatoJello Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
//screeches at you


This is by far the cutest and most powerful thing I've read for a while, this is so amazing!! Thank you, thank you for.. what's the word for it... boosting my own self esteem(?). Thank you ;u; <3333333
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
<3 :hug:
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sisaat Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You have my endless admiration for doing this. And my thanks. I really needed to read this right now. So thank you. I wish I could say more, but I'm bad at this communication thing, so I'll send you a virtual hug instead. :hug:
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
and I'll send one back for you with a ton of thanks :tighthug: <3
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lichliebe Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
Eliiiii ;v; This is beautiful, I woke up and went to my first period class and checked my inbox because I'm a rebel and when I saw this I had the biggest stupid grin on my face and everyone was like "wat r u doin'" slkdjfjkdf
I am so so so proud of you ;v; This took a lot of guts and it came out BEAUTIFULLY, from the words down to those slkdj adORABLE little chibi Rems. You're very admirable, thank you for sharing this ;u;/ You are more than okay, you are wonderful and beautiful and this is wonderful and beautiful and my teacher is yelling at me now for having my ipod out so I'm going to scurry off but this is beautiful and inspiring and will no doubt provide many people including me with some killer advice and lakjlkDJFS SHE'S COMINGOVER HERE BYE ELI ILU I'L TALK TO YOU LATER
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
This was terrifying to read. Like one of those moments where they're writing their last words before the monster breaks through the door and eats them. Iluram<3
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rebbysther Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I know that I can't say that I understand you nor that I ever will, but I want you to know that you're not alone and that I really really care for you. We might've not talked that much we either but you're still very very important to me and I want you to be happy.

I'll never be able to sit down with you and hear you out and hug you and actually take care of you. I wish I could now, I wish I could sit down with you and learn to understand you better, but for now, since flying over to you and hugging you is impossible, I just want to say that I care and if you ever need to talk, I'll be there ;u;

I care for you so so much Remmy and I wish you all the happiness ;u; :heart:

And if it's okay with you can I call you Eli? ;w;
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
;.; omg Rebby, my heart. Thank you so much. You can call me Eli, yeah, yeah you can. Thank you you're so so sweet <3
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rebbysther Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
//secretly strokes your heart :icontouchplz:

I shall call you Eli from now on then ;v;
You're the sweet one Eli :heart: thank you for being so nice to all of us :heart:
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M-A-G-O-T-T Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013
Rem, I'm seriously so proud of you. You've come a really long way from when I first started talking to you.

There are always going to be people who don't accept something about you. If not this--it'd be something else. The only thing that will EVER be important is if you're happy. You're an amazing person and very brave for doing this. I really think a lot of people are going to see this and take a lot from the words you're giving them. You're very inspiring!

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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
omg, reading one of these after another is heart wrenching and just omg. typink ;`; my heart is all filled with feels and stuff so sdfkasdf :tighthug: Thank you for all the help you gave me in the beginning and here and there along the way. You seriously helped like a lot by just..well being around and knowing you helped, honestly.
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RyuuLen Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
aw rem. you're such an amazing person. ;v; -hugs tight- the words you have in your heart is very beautiful. <3
i am here if you need anything. c:

and i will kick some ass if someone messes with ya :icondojimaangryplz:
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im-Rem Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Student General Artist
:tighthug: tyryuu<4
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CrammedHeadspace Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
.... I've only ever known you as 'Rem,' but what you've done with this, I just........

Thanks. A lot. I wish I could know you better, if for no other reason than you seem like a person worth knowing, I guess. I really have no idea what I'm saying, I'm honestly just babbling a bit >.<

I'ma end my babbling here and just say, you are a truly beautiful person, and I'm very glad I took the time to read this. Again, thanks. :')
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